Does it have to be this way?

Never really been shot at twice in a row, coming from a person whom i confide in in times of need. It would have soften the blow if you came up to me personally to tell me, then to slap it in my face in front of everyone. What's done is done. There's nothing anyone can do to turn back time. Kinda stinks when you have friends you can't even relate to.. We can't even end a conversation with a smile on our face. Maybe it's cause i didn't phrase what i intended to say the way it's suppose to be. But to me, every sentence you make seem to be a personal attack.. Why? Maybe it's just me.. I'm wierd, i'm the odd one out, I'm just trying too hard to blend in.. It's really hard to tell you. Trust me..

Tired.. Drained.. Need to recharge..

Ladiladila.. Sorry.. Screw a bit loose. Today went for the trail at MacRitchie. Bunked at En's house last night. Surprising we managed to sleep for more then 3 hours. Could have slept more if it weren't for Jason. But it's ok la.. Considering.. Heiheihei.. *grins* You should know what i mean. Haha.. Okok.. Enough crap. Waited for this bro of ours to come to En's house before we could finally sleep la.. So i was like channel surfing the entire night until he arrived at like erm.. 1 plus? Anyways.. The main thing is that we managed to catch some sleep. Woke up at like 5.30 by this wierd alarm tone from Jason's phone. Totaly startled me lah.. Washed up and stuff and went to eat breakfast. After that we took a bus down to our destination.

The ride there was crap lah.. So many people. Then this guy kpet on resting his entire body weight on me. Aiya.. He was pretty heavy. But considering the fact that the bus was kinda pack. I just closed both eyes. Reached there and started the trail and stuff. It was White Sands Pri. The kids were pretty ok, though they weren't very enthu at the beginning. They managed to be more open after that. Haha.. They even bought me a drink after the entire trail to thank me. So nice of them right?? Wahaha.. En and Jason must be chao jealous. But they had really tough kids. So.. It really depends on the class and stuff. I am blessed to have such a nice class.

After the entire trail, we headed to West Mall. Kinda dumb cause we reached there then left shortly.. Reason being we had nothing to do there. Wanted to chill there or something initially? But decided to head over to En's house for lunch instead. Auntie Grace's "Shui Jiao Mian" is the nicest man! LOVE IT!! Plus the chilli from HongKong i suppose. Woah! Haha.. Thanks auntie Grace!! She is a really good cook. Haha.. After eating, Jingjing woke up and i played the piano with her for a bit before i headed home. Jingjing is down with a fever. So do pray for her ya people? Thanks. Headed home, vacuumed the floor, took a bath, ate Mac which my dad bought and slept till 6.15..

Had adult service band prac at 8pm. Reached church at 7 plus and sat through Charles' YZ anniversary's band prac until it was time for me and en to go for band prac. Everything went smoothly and we ended pretty early.. After that i headed home.. Chao tired. So here i am blogging just before i turn in for the night. Might be running tomorrow morning. See how lah.. Anyways. That's about it for today. Till next time guys!

Woke up at 6am today to send my sister to school at 6.30 and decided to go for a run. Ran from my house to Buona Vista MRT station and headed toward Ghim Moh that direction and then home. Some of you guys must be thinking.. "Lance can't be blogging now.." Ya ya.. It is me. =) Pretty proud of myself too.. Reached home, took a bath, rest for a bit and it was time to head down to church for Puppet Practise. Yup.. Met Yi En and Jing jing on the train. You guys should have looked at the faces Jing Jing was making lah.. So cute and funny. So wanna pinch her cheeks. Anyways, this Sat is YZ's Anniversary! Just received a message from Wuch saying that my DG is suppose to prepare $25 worth of BeeHoon.. Oh.. And the worship leader for this Sunday is Ming. Jia You gal! I'm sure you'll deliver a great worship. =) Okok.. Nothing much happened today. Came home, did some household chores, took a nap and here i am blogging. Yup. Take care guys.

Life is full of "Should I"s and "Shouldn't I"s

Hey.. Here i am blogging once more just before i head out to meet En and Jason for the facilitator job thingy. So farnie.. Last min cancel our original trail and then asked if we could go down today for the MacRitchie briefing at 6pm. Anyways.. I'll be heading down in a while.. Man.. Oh ya.. Dora.. You didn't miss out much lah.. Joce was just being herself if you know what i mean. She'll only drool at the sight of cute guys lah.. She was super upset that you could see those cute ang mohs over at Perth everyday when all she could see is.. nothing? Dunno lah.. So you better bring her back some.. Or she might just die.. Haiya..

Life is full of "should i"s and "shouldn't i"s.. First was the crumpler thingy.. Still haven't really decided whether i should get one or not.. Now it's the musical thingy. I did pray about it before and i thought the answer was NO but then auntie Marilyn and uncle Biao came up to Jason, Jordan and me last Sunday to ask if we wanted to join the musical.. I mean.. I thought i went through this already? Then i was thinking to myself.. God wouldn't have gotten someone to ask me if He's plan wasn't for me to join the musical right? So now that He opened that opportunity again.. Should i take it up? Jason and Jordan were ok with it other then me.. Guess i need to pray some more then.. Well.. There is this one other stuff which I think i'd rather keep to myself for the mean time..

Well then.. I'm finally at the book of Numbers.. At least i've got something to be happy about.. Then again.. I've still got quite a number of books to go.. I'm suppose to be at Judges now.. Anyways.. I've gotta go already..

Youth Sunday!!

Sunday.. Here i am blogging just before i turn in for the day. See that some peeps have been reading my blog. Lolx.. Jocelyn! If you're reading this, you should know what i mean lah.. No need to explain further one. Heiheihei.. You were drooling lor.. Come on.. Don't you dare deny.. The area around you all wet wet one lor.. Covered with your saliva.. Haiya.. Don't blame you. Well then.. Let's not talk about that here.. Today was Youth Sunday and the youths led the congregation in a time of worship. (i mean like duh..) BJ was the worship leader and he did a really great job. Many adults were impressed and commented that he was young yet so matured and stuff.. The funny part was when they said that he looked like an uncle up there. Oh man.. BJ old already.. My heart bleeds for you. Anyways.. I can't help but say that uncle Say Tiong mentioned that he liked how the band played and stuff.. He came up to me and said he likes how we always play in time. Heard that band? YOU GUYS DID A GREAT JOB! But remember guys, all glory still goes to God. So do not be complacent and stuff. We did encounter SOME problems during band prac but thank God that everything is settled. Was kinda afraid that you guys would take it negatively but everything turned out fine. God is really wonderful. After service and stuff, wanted to go play DOTA with the rest of the gang lah.. But my parents wanted me to have lunch with them cuz they haven't eaten with me for the past 2 days. Well then.. So we went to eat as a family and then we headed home.. I stoned around for a bit and then i slept all the way till 7pm. Very the shiok.. After that, we had to go over to my gramp's house for dinner. That's about it.. Till next time then. =)

Grade 8 Piano Practical Results!!!!

Today, it was just staying at home and doing the household chores day. Cleared up some more of my stuff and managed to do the laundry and vacuum the floor and also cook for my sis.. Actually nothing special other then towards the night. I knew my results would be out this week and was waiting eagerly to find out how i did.. Then my piano teacher entered my house with the "you didn't make it" face and told me she received my results already. At that point of time i was like.. Oh shit.. Confirm die already.. Then we went to my room, cuz that was where the piano was, and she told me that i did pretty well. I was like super relieved lah. Happy and stuff.. Really.. I really thanked God. He really pulled me through and not to forget all those people who have been constantly encouraging me and stuff. THANK YOU EVERYBODY! PRAISE THE LORD! AMEN!! I was pretty high. It wasn't as good as my grade 7 results in which i got a merit but i'm happy enough with a pass. =) The next step is to go for my diploma. Chatted with my teacher a while and got to know more about the life after grade 8 and stuff. She'll be recommending me to her ex-teacher, Jennifer Chew, who is pretty known in Singapore. I was really thrilled lah.. And I'll be taking my theory with this other pretty known lady called Josephine Koh. She's known for good theory books and stuff. Oh man.. Just talking about all these just makes me excited man. But hey man.. Thanks once again! Love you peeps out there!!

SENTOSA!! WooHoo!!

En, Joce, Jason and I went to Sentosa.. Considering the fact that i'm not a beach bum, going to Sentosa to chill must be a jaw-dropping thingy to most of you.. Anyways.. We had fun there i suppose. The initial stage of if was kinda sian until this group of peeps came up to us and asked if we wanted to have a game of ulitmate frisby and touch rugby.. Well.. We used the volleyball in place of the rugby that is.. They also asked these 2 ang mohs to play with us and they were pretty good looking with the abs and stuff.. So i suppose you know what Jocelyn's reaction was.. Anyways.. We left the place at around 5 plus i suppose, after everyone bathed and stuff that is. Then something happened to my phone.. It went crazy.. Can't seem to function properly.. I suppose it's cause i accidentally wet my phone? Dunno lah.. Crap..

Then i asked them to bring my phone to Nokia care to service it? But it was closed already.. Well.. Thanks for bringing it down for me even though it was closed.. I'm sorry you guys had to make a trip down. The reason why i didn't go with them was cuz i had to play for prayer service. The worship leader was uncle Kien Seng. And i was his only musician. Well, it was pretty good actually! It was the very first time i attended a Prayer Service. At the end of it all, people came up to me to thank me for playing. It was nice. Well.. I was quite surprised that some peeps dodn't know i knew how to play the piano. But anyways.. It doesn't really matter. It lasted for an hour and then I waited for Joce, En and Jason in church cuz we were suppose to down to Joce's house to eat supper. The food was nice.. Really.. So.. "Thanks auntie Lily for the food!" =) I left the place earlier then them cuz it was running a litlle late. Reached home and shared everything with my mum and i'll be heading to bed soon.. *Hope Jason reads this and sends me the photos soon. Lolx*

Here i am stoning in front of the com again and i decided to update this blog. A little while more and i'll be heading down town to meet Joce and En for a "no spending, just talking" session. Sounds ok ba.. And guess wat? I'm the band IC for Youth Sunday! Kyna is still the overall in-charge and the band conprises of Mikh, Rachel, Jason, Ming, me and of course our Worship Leader himself, BJ. Well.. Pray that everything will run smoothly this coming Sun. Oh ya.. I was thinking of getting myself a crumpler.. Been asking around and most said go ahead lor.. Still in dilemma.. Cuz i need a sling bag.. Besides.. It's more convenient too.. Especially since i'm my job requires walking around..

My results will be out soon! By the end of tis friday that is.. Not sure how i'm gonna fare but i'm pretty sure i'll do better then my piano exam.. Think i'm gonna be so dead.. Well.. And piano results will be out this week too i suppose.. Okok.. I think that's it for the moment. I've gotta go already guys. See ya!

Hello.. Today is the first day of my facil job.. Me, Yien and KaiQing went for the thingy today in which we had to be in St. Hildas Primary by 7.30AM.. Crap right? But thanks to brilliant old me, we decided to bunk at Jason's house the night before.. *applause* Me and En met at Clementi at 7 plus and headed down to Tampines.. Reached there already then decided to eat at one of the outlets at Tampines mall. Then we hanged around there till the arrival of Jason.. Went to Pasah Malam (Is that how you spell it?) En saw lingerie and wanted to buy them but decided not to.. Ok.. That part was crap.. Then went to the arcade to chill.. It's been ages since i ast step foot in that place lah.. played the driving game and i obviously emerged last out of the 3 of us. Then we headed to Jason's place. Used his com a bit and then went to the living room to watch movies. That marked the start of the never-ending movie marithon.. And i really mean never ending cause we never really did finish watching a movie.. All half way only.. Anyways.. We watched throughout the night until bout 4 and chatted for quite a while and then went to bed only at what.. 5AM/5.30AM?? But the chatting session was really great i suppose. Ya.. Did share some stuff.. And thanks guys for hearing me out. =)Only had an hour of sleep and then we had to get ready already.. So we went to school looking like zombies lor.. Good old bro brought us to that place and left us there while he attended some meeting.. The kids were pretty much ok.. Not really notorious, they were just being kids i suppose.. They were pretty hard to control at times.. But what really made our day was when they all thanked us and told us "Thank you Jie Jie Yi En and Kor Kor Lance. And may God bless you!" After hearing those words.. I was like.. It was all worth it man.. Though it was pretty agonizing at times.. Everything ended by 12.30PM and we all headed back. Met Jason again and we headed our different ways le.. Well.. All i can say is that it was really hard handling those kids but it did bring much joy to see those happy faces at the end of it.. Yup..

Dear diary.. (Sounds stupid though)Today i went down for the briefing regarding the facilitator job i signed up. Started at 7 and i met my church friend Yi En at BK for dinner. BJ was there too.. Then we headed to that place for the briefing. Surprised to see Kim there too.. I mean.. Kim? She signing up for the MacRitchie Trail?? Totally not her.. She can't handle the heat! And with those kids.. I bet i will hear her screaming her lungs out. Then again, it's kinda wierd to think that i'll actually be handling 20 kids single handedly. Man.. I'll most probably end up pulling out all my hair (though i might not have much hair to pull) or might end myself up in jail. Well.. Then again.. It's for the money.. And hey.. I do like children.. I hope? What the hell.. It just feels kinda uncomfortable posting an entry again after the past incident.. I suppose it'll always reside within me that these kinda things do happen? And to whoever did that.. I'm sorry i said those stuff and blew my top at you.. And.. I graciously forgive you?? That's what i'm suppose to do. So.. I'm sorry.. =) Hope my apology is accepted. Yup.. I'll be starting work officially on next monday i think.. The thing about it is that the dates are not fixed.. So you don't really have a fixed pay either.. But look on the bright side! I'm getting paid like 30 to 40 bucks just for a few hours! Ok.. That's all for now guys. Till next time!

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